Today I can hardly haul myself around the house to take care of the minimal tasks. I feel like I got hit by a truck. Headache nausea short of breath. My usual companions. And today I was greeted w a new byproduct of illness t- my fingertips on one hand are going numb. This is Re-DICK. I want to be a good mom to my baby and at least a decent wife for my husband. I am so angry at the illness today. It is the worst theif I have ever encountered. I know their is more to this medical mishap that just RA and allergies. I have pursued every option given to me thus far. I have been an obedient patient. Now I am DONE waiting for the Drs to figure out this puzzle. My health is declining fast... I have to make a chioce to continue this night train to nowhere or become my own conductor. I have SO MUCH TO LOSE. Today I am picking my battle and mapping out a plan of attack.